i never really journaled about that whole adventure with cigarettes and X and Y last year
long story short: last spring/summer i was experiencing huge amounts of disgust with myself (see my jim and andy newsletter)
did clowning with X
found this character Snake who is like Tasshin’s total opposite
snake said that we should do something “Tasshin” would never do
snake proposed buying cigarettes and smoking them
we did
major character downloads/upgrades ensue, personality integration
disgust with self goes way down
i smoke rest of pack of cigarettes, as a handle to get access to this snake persona
i am dating Y at the time
Y used to smoke
we smoke cigarettes together
she likes Snake wayyyyy better than Tasshin
i promise X i wouldn’t buy a pack of cigarettes for a year